How He Loves, Tam Hodge

So thankful to have Tam Hodge, aka @inprogress, sharing today.

I started following Tam on twitter awhile back and finally had the pleasure of meeting her and her husband Brent in February when they were in town for ReCreate. I instantly knew that she was someone I needed to know better. I sure hope she felt the same way, because she is going to have a hard time shaking me.

Find Tam’s blog here.

And her twitter here.

1987, 16 1/2 years old, i sat in an abortion clinic in southern california. alone and frightened. i didn’t show it. i couldn’t show it. i wouldn’t show it.

i no longer lived at home with my family. i had to be the big girl now. i had do the right thing. i had to look out for me.

at all costs.

fifteen months later…i sat in the very same abortion clinic waiting to rid my life of one more mistake.

how could God love me after ending two innocent lives? why would He?

i never thought then of the repercussions my decisions would have. not once did i consider the impact those abortions would have on my life or the lives of others.

and it certainly never occurred to me then that i would one day have to tell my own daughter.

when i look at my daughter, kassidi, i don’t just see my first born…i see my first chosen born. i see grace. i see redemption. i see mercy. i see Love.

kass knows about my abortions now. she has ministered to many girls in her high school because of what she now knows of the subject. this is God using my ashes to demonstrate His beauty and love.

Gods love has allowed kass to experience life. her life has allowed me to know Love.

i was 16 when i had my first abortion. my first born is now 16. and she sings today because He loves us…Oh, how He loves us…